Over thinking

I can't tell you how weird I feel right now.

Everyone who sees the state my car was in tells me how lucky I am to be alive.

I can't take that thought in. If the car had hit the tree in any other way than what it did, I wouldn't be here. I don't know how to feel about that.

What am I supposed to say when someone tells me time and time again how lucky I am to be here. The situation could have ended in so many different ways, I'm so grateful it happened how it did but I just can't take in how lucky I actually am.

I don't know who to talk to about this without sounding like I'm feeling sorry for myself. I just feel so sick when I think about how it could have ended.