Over thinking

I can't tell you how weird I feel right now.

Everyone who sees the state my car was in tells me how lucky I am to be alive.

I can't take that thought in. If the car had hit the tree in any other way than what it did, I wouldn't be here. I don't know how to feel about that.

What am I supposed to say when someone tells me time and time again how lucky I am to be here. The situation could have ended in so many different ways, I'm so grateful it happened how it did but I just can't take in how lucky I actually am.

I don't know who to talk to about this without sounding like I'm feeling sorry for myself. I just feel so sick when I think about how it could have ended.

Well my cars fucked

So today's been a crappy day.

I'll show you why:

Eurgh it was horrible. I'm not going to go on about it because thinking about it still upsets me, I've been told I was lucky to come out of it in one piece as if the car had hit the tree front on the engine would have crushed me and if I'd have hit it from the side the car would have been folded in half. So many 'what ifs' and I'm sure they're going to play on my mind for a good while, but I just need to count myself lucky that I didn't kill myself or anybody else, and just move on.

In quite alot of pain with my back and neck at the minute, but the paramedic said I havn't broke anything so It's just whiplash. Eurgh just so surreal. Was just a moment of complete panic as I realised I had no control of the car and I just had to wait and see where I ended up.

Just want to sleep now anyway, on some pretty strong pain killers so they're making me feel drowsy. Hopefully tomorrow the pains lessened and I can just move on from this.